Crazy Horse & Mt. Rushmore

 Just alittle input in History.

 My two silly one's infront of Mt. Rushmore.

 Old tools that were used to work on Crazy Horse. It's a private funded memorial. I do not believe it will even be done in my childrens life time. So if you ever go out that way....DONATE....that's how they keep the project going.

 What Crazy Horse should look like when it is done.

More from our trip out West.

 Just an amazing view.

Just a deer running from the train.

 I just think this is such a great picture of Seth. His blue eyes are so bright!

Wild Turkeys. So many baby turkeys!

Sophia enjoying the train ride.

 Steve, Sophia & Seth waiting for the train to get there.

Our trip out West.....very fun :)

So many baby bears. They were so sweet!

Guess this bear is just chill'n

The train we rode on.

Wild Turkey's

An old mine.

In South Dakota on this part of our trip.

Welcome Leah :)

Just would like to show everyone my son Nicholas's new puppy Leah....
Leah is called my  "Grand Puppy"  Oh how that cracks me up.
She is one crazy little dog. She gives me a run for my money let me tell ya. I do enjoy her.

Freezing my tumors

Well the doctors are going to freeze my tumors in a few days. They've said they've had good results doing this. Makes me a little scared but I'll give it a try. What do I have to lose.... nothing.

I look at it this way. They can do it to help me but I'm also helping them by seeing how it works. With each person they try this with they can see what works and what doesn't. It's all good.

Only thing is No Music.....hahaha! We'll be in a different room this time. I think it's the CT room. Oh I have enough music in my head to keep me busy. Maybe I'll sing a country song for Dr. Ali.....that's a joke because he hates country music. I don't. He lets me listen to 80's hair band music during my other treatments. I guess you'd have to be in the treatment room to under the humor in all this.

Anyway I will post after I'm done having the tumors froze in my liver. Until then I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend & a amazing month of June!

Here's the video my friend Michael Gallagher made for his school project. We were class mates at
Columbia in Chicago. When he asked me to do it I was like "heck yeah!" I never turn down a way to get the word out about Breast Cancer. Or any cancer at that.

He did such a great job! I'm very proud of the job he did. Very proud to call him my friend too. So watch the video. Learn from it and tell everyone about it. Get that word out. Just know I'm very positive about my cancer. It is what it is. God gave it to me for a reason and that reason was to help other's.


http://youtu.be/eNo-2GthBY8

Test Results/Don't forget to fight....

Well got all the results from my PET Scan, MRI & CT Scans.
No new cancer. It's staying in my liver. Lungs were great. PET scan was great....MRI is the big pain in my butt!

So it shows the liver really hasn't changed. It either shows the tumors grew alittle or it scar tissue. So Dr. Kang & Dr. Ali were going to go over the MRI together. So we will see what's up my next appointment and we will go from there. As in either more chemo in the liver or freeze those babies. But I have to stay on chemo every 2 weeks. Oh joy.

I know it is what it is. I'm always positive about it. But yet you have those moments to where you stop and think why keep doing this crap. Is it helping....is it working....is it this or is it that.....sucks some days. Then see my children.....and those thoughts go right out my mind. The thought of maybe seeing a wedding or a grandchild pop in my head. That's a great thought. To finally see Adam get his welding degree. To see Nicholas finally become a fireman for our home town or any town.

To see Jory go to his first prom. To be here to see Jory graduate from high school.  To see Sophia start high school. Then little Seth grow into a little man. To  see what he might be as a man. To have my 25 Wedding Anniversary party. Renew our vows is a good idea.

So that's why I fight. If you or whoever reads this ever had a doubt....don't....it's worth the fight. Don't give up. Remember fight like there is a tomorrow. Fight like you've never fought before. Make your dreams come true. Don't sit there and watch life pass you by....join in & live!

Well after my stay in the hospital 2 weekends ago I was given 2 weeks off of chemo. So I've been enjoying it. Steve & I had dinner with our friends Scott & Lori. That was just by chance. Had a nice time. Then we went to the boat. Hung out with our friend Jenny....as we call her Jin Nay Nay...haha! Then ran into our son Nicholas who was out with his girl friend. They all went out for Sommers birthday.  So we all hung out with them for a while.

It was nice to see people I haven't seen in a long time. It was all the kid's friends. Which I call them my kids. They call me momma Palmer & Steve they call daddy Palmer....hahaha! The guys just call us by our first names. Oh I just love those kids! Well I guess I shouldn't call them kids anymore Their all over 21. LOL! I met new people who are either dating that person or just freinds with them. So that was nice.

So everything is going good. This coming week I have my test, PET scan, MRI & CT scan to do. So when I go back for chemo we'll have more of a handle on how my liver is. The next treatment on my liver is to FREEZE yeah I said that FREEZE my tumors in my liver to kill them. I have to say that is really strange but hey if it works it works.

Alright folks have a wonderful week & will post again soon. Everyone out there keep strong & be happy. Life is just too short not to get out there and live it. Laugh when you can because it always makes you feel better. Cry when you need to because that makes you feel better too. Believe in yourself and know you can do whatever if you set your mind to it.

If you have cancer do what I do.....I laugh in the face of cancer & say you will never take me! Fight it & beat it. Be positive always. To be positive is what helps you face it & take it down.

Peace & Positive thoughts to all of you.

Be a fighter.....fight against that cancer.........win...........

Just one of those days...........................

You know I'm just having one of those days where you wish you would of just stayed in bed.  Just not a happy little camper. Just sick of a lot of stuff.

#1 thing: sick of  my cancer. And that's pretty much all I feel like saying today.

Hope whoever reads this has a better day than me...that's all.

Another day :)

Well had my 4th chemo pumped into my liver. Oh joy! I went in with a smile and came out very dopped up.....haha! I was feeling nothing. Later that night I did get sick which I don't usually do but my body was just done with it all. My husband was up there, my friend Kris & her daughter were there too.....ok I have never seen anyone move so fast to get out of my room! LOL! It would of been a chain reaction if I would of threw up with those 2 in the room. Kris said she almost ran Steve over....hahaha! Next time get'em Kris....hahahaha!

As always they took super care of me! Poor Tina, I wake up (but I don't remember) and call her name to make sure she is there with me. We make the Dr. Ali listen to 80's hair band music which he doesn't like...hahaha! But will listen to it for me. Last time I woke up when I heard Motley Crue's song "Home Sweet Home" and told Tina not to freak out but that will be played at my funeral. Which it will. 1 because I love that song....2 I love my Motley Crue & 3 I will be going to my Home Sweet Home. That is my take on the song.

Well anyway an update is to follow here. Had the chemo on Thursday came home on Friday & but Tuesday had an appointment for more regular chemo. But I so knew I wasn't going to do chemo today. I was very Dehydrated and had to have IV fulids today and will tomorrow too. I was down the whole weekend with a fever that went up & down.

I didn't go to the ER like I should of. Well you sit there for 8 hours before you get a room on a floor. Who wants to sit in a exam room for 8 hours. Not me. Plus I shouldn't be down there with all the sick people. I could catch what they have on top of with what I'm dealing with. But they do take wonderful care of me. Just wish they'd fix that issue and make better hospital food like they use to!!! GGRRRRR! Nothing like crappy food when your sick.

So more IV fluids and rest. No chemo till after kids are done with spring break. Which starts soon. I do not want to do chemo while they are on break. It's not fair to them at all. Plus I'm just sick of chemo. Which is ok I can feel that way.....haha.....We all have that right when you have cancer to be grumpy about chemo. Blahahaha!

Ok that's about it. Hope everyone out there has a wonderful day.....which ever day you read this on :)

Be happy & live your life to the fullest each & everyday please! Take care even if I don't know you I send out tons of hugs & love to you all!

Just an update

Not much going on here but just alittle update.

No new cancer anywhere. Which is wonderful.....YAY!

The whole liver thing is crazy. Left side as of now is doing well. It's listen....my liver has a mind of it's own.

Right side is not listen at all. So we have to do #4 procedure to go through my femoral artery. Insert a catheter and go to the liver.

Go to where the tumors are in the right side of the liver and fill the tumors with 2 kinds of chemo. It can take up to 3 or 4 hrs. They give me lots of lovely drugs so I don't remember it. Tina the nurse....also my friend....tells me how silly I am during the whole thing. They play 80's hair band music for me....hahaha! Dr. Ali & the staff are so good to me. We always are laughing before they loop me out. Just love them all!

Their so amazing and so good to me. I could never ask for anything better than everyone who takes care of me during all of my care & treatment. I have to say to do what they do day in & day out....their all angels. God put them here on earth to help others. I am very thankful for that. I don't know what I would do with out them.

They become your family. They become your friends. They take the place of the friends you use to have. The friends that leave you because they can't handle the fact you have cancer. Their scared and don't understand it. Or they just don't really care about you and just drop you like a hot cake.

Oh I had those kind of people around me....I choose to disconnect from them. Their what you would call "TOXIC" friends. If you have those kind of friends GET RID OF THEM!!! I think I have for the most part. They so bring you down. To keep yourself strong you must think of yourself first when it comes to cancer.

So that's it from me today. Thought everyone would like to know what was going on with my treatment. Just remember I'm not going anywhere anytime.

I am strong......hear me roar......hahahaha! Oh had to do that one! HA!

and keep humor in your life. it goes a long way :)

Motley Crue With Their 1st Vegas Show...They Rocked!

I have to say they really rocked this show. They were able to do different things that they have never been able to do. Which made the show very amazing! From the first time I seen them in 2005, then The 1st Crue Fest till the Vegas show those 3 will always be in my mind forever. It was just amazing in Vegas. BRAVO GUYS....BRAVO!