Why? I will.....

You know I wonder "why" a lot these days.
Why people have to get cancer?
Why people have to treat you different because you have cancer?
Why some of your friends can handle it and some can't?
Why do these nasty, drug dealers, crack heads live a long life when good people have to get cancer?
Why do some drugs work on cancer and some don't?
Why do kids get cancer?
Why Why Why Why?? Hmmmm.....
Good questions.
Well I know that god doesn't give you what you can't handle. For some reason he thought it was a good idea to give me cancer yet again. I can be mad. I can hate him for it.
OR..........................I can be the person I know he would want me to be. For that reason he gave me this cancer.
He "aka" God thought I would be strong enough to help those who can't understand cancer. Those who have the hard time dealing with it. I'm not saying I have all the answer's but I know enough to hold my head high and face cancer head on.
I'm strong for those who can't be strong. I cry for the one's who pass from it. I cry for the one's who just find out they have cancer. I hold my arms wide open and hold the one's who need a hug.
Yet I come right back to that good old question WHY?
None of us will ever have all the answers. I guess in the end those will be answered by him "aka" god.
So I will keep being strong. I will keep my head held high. I will be the stronger one for those who can not. I will be a mom that will teach her children to do everything they can to be the person's I know they will grow into. I will be the mom to show them that you can be strong in times of great pain and sadness. I will be the daughter, sister, sister in law, friend, mother and the wife who will lead them all to stand up and be strong in the hours of sorrow.
I will be ME.

Just some pictures that I took the day I had the CT scan. I cried and cried when I was getting the CT scan done. It just sucked. Plain and simple it sucked.

I think I cried until I came to where I wanted to take some pictures. That is by far the one thing I can do and it brings me peace of mind.

Who knows maybe it was just a sign from the big guy to tell me to hang in there it will get better.

Then as I'm taking pictures the sun was out and it started to rain and rain hard. Sun still out and there it was, a double rain bow. The second one is hard to see but it's there.

Maybe it was a sign to bring me peace. Peace of mind. I don't know why I have cancer yet again but who knows why we get the things we do. Maybe I'm here to show everyone out there that cancer isn't all that bad. You can be a positive person even with cancer. Maybe I have to show my children to be strong when the chips are down. Or you can do whatever you want if you put your mind to it. Not sure why I've been dealt this but I will make the best of it.

That's all I have to give. I just have me to give. Give to each of you the power to and the will to fight. Fight for life. A voice for all to hear that you can beat cancer and you can be positive about your cancer. You just have to be. If your not it's more likely you will die faster than someone who is willing to fight and be that positive person.

You make the choice. You make the choice to be positive. You make the choice to stand up and say I will not let cancer take me. You make the choice to be the better person in life. And you make the choice to be who you are. Only you can make that choice.

Soccer 2010

Saved the best for last...The Wedding!

I have to say the Wedding was just amazing. Everything was just perfect. Couldn't of had a nicer day or a better night. So I hope everyone enjoys the pictures from the wedding. I have to say sitting there waiting for the wedding to start I never felt more at peace. The whole winery was just amazing. So enjoy the pictures. As for my family.......love you all so much!

Air show in the Bay. Blue Angels and more.

Had a great time with Uncle Bob watching

them practice that day.

We've never been able to find the

time to see an air show.

Guess we had to go to California to do it.

But who better to do it with than Uncle Bob..

It was just so nice to hang out with my family.

I just love my Uncle Bob & Aunt Marlene!

Just so everyone know's

I took all the pictures.

Yes my pictures were taking

by me....

Juli Palmer

:)

A day on HWY 1 in California

Here's a day of driving down HWY 1 in California.

We spent the day just talking and having some fun together.

Sometimes that is the way to

spend your day.

Together.